There's a whole in my heart that can only be filled by you...

Alas...homesickness sets in. I knew it would come to this, but so soon? Not fair. I miss hanging out with people at will, I miss going to places that are not on a LOOP...and I miss feeling confident. The job search did not go as well as I planned it, although I did get a job, I expected more places to call me back, with my stunning past jobby job history. Not so much. Eh, I guess a discount on good clothes makes up for it. I basically feel shitty because I have no self confidence right now. I am obsessing over my looks for now apparent reason other than I have nothing else to do right now. No job, no class, no friends. I am comparing myself to stupid people and unsure about my personality. I have continued to work out while living in San Antonio (walk the dog, do floor exercises) but I feel really gross and uggo. I'm sick of Ezra everyday. I'm sick of having no money coming in. I'm sick of not seeing my friends and I don't want them to forget about me. I hate my clothes and I want a new wardrobe. I am basically being a whiney bitch and I want someone to care.

This post is doing me no good.