Here I am with Dave, who obviously wanted nothing to do with my silly ass. I just got back from the official Mustard Seed Market post-holiday shin-dig. Um my job causes so much conflict in my life. I really love everyone that I work with. I mean REALLY love them. I don't know what I would do without these friends I have made at this place. I will forever be grateful for the friendships I have made over this 5 1/2 year period. But (you knew this was coming), I cannot handle these godforesaken customers. It really sucks when people actively attempt to belittle you and make you feel like shit. Which they do not do, they just piss me off to no end. I just visualize their demise in many different ways. What I am attempting to get out is that I want to turn a new leaf in my life. I want to get out of here. I want to plan a different life. I want to START OVER. No old memories to hold me back to these places and things. I want to become reborn per say. Lordy does that sound hokey, but seriously. It's time. I feel it in my bones, and my boner...

I would just like to say also that I love my boyfriend. He is a wonderful man and I love him more and more everyday. He puts comfort in my life. He is my preverbial rock.

Funny how I never wanted to do this ever again. And here it is. Man, if I had a dollar for everytime I heard someone say that, I probably would be rich. That love thing is a mighty crazy thingy.

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